Jacket: People are People
Top and belt: F&H
Pants: H&M
Shoes: Zara
Bag: Vintage
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
iColor
I'm getting FAT!
Jacket: Vintage
Top: Bench
Harem Pants: Human
Shoes: Traffic
Accessories: F&H
Watch: ODM
Bag: The Cambridge Satchel Company
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Tough Chic. Chos.
Leather Jacket: People are People
Top: Penshoppe
Jeans: Zara
Shoes: Traffic
Belt and Bangles: F&H
Bag: Memo
Friday, May 27, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
One Colorful Day
Top: Dean and Trent
Pants: Diego
Shoes: Salvatorre Man
Accessories: F&H
Bag: The Cambridge Satchel Company
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Ouch
I'm a sucker for anything melodramatic. When I read my friend's latest post, I can help but feel his pain.
Stan, hang in there. *hug*
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Drenched
this was the flood in Philcoa and I was drenched!
When I was all dry and OK, this was how I looked.
Denim top: H&M
Tee: Landmark
Pants: Diego
Shoes: Zara
Belt: F&H
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Monday, May 16, 2011
If Only
Did you ever stop, think and wonder if you had the chance, would do something all over again differently? I have.
I really don’t like it when I’m left all alone. I start thinking of a lot of things. I have to learn how to clear out my thoughts. You have to select your thoughts the way you select your clothes every day. That’s one of the things I learned when I watched Eat Pray Love.
Looking back the past, there were a lot of things I wish I had done differently. Life has been difficult. I just have my way of coping with things. I know I;m tough, but I do crumble at times. Well, mostly when I’m all alone. But if there’s one thing I would want to change, that would be the time when I walked away from the one person who took a chance on me.
They say that the first few months of a relationship are the most fun and exciting. Fun, yes. Exciting, definitely. The three months that we’ve been together was a mix of bittersweet moments. We were both new at the game. I made had have some before, but I never had anybody serious. You were a newbie. Just like you, we were neophytes when it came to relationships.
You were the idealist, I was the realist. Or should I say pessimist. You had plans for the future, our future, and I on the other hand had none. It was not because I never saw a future with you. It was just I didn’t want to disappoint myself when things won’t turn out they way I drew them in my mind. We were opposites, like yin and yang, fire and water. Yet somehow, me made it work, for a while. Then things turned out sour and I gave up. Packed my stuff and left, saying that I would never go back. Yet at the back of my mind, I knew that I just wanted you to come after me. Yes you did, just once. But I never felt that you wanted me back so bad.
Months passed and we never heard from each other. Until one day, we saw each other with your friends and had coffee. It was weird. It was a mix of joy and a bit of pain. I was glad that we got together again, catching up on lost times. Then one day you wanted to come over and talk about a problem at work. There we were, talking like old friends. It felt nice to have you again. You said you missed me, I did too. That night I was afraid to hurt you. I didn’t want you to think that I wanted to get back. I was chasing someone else then and havoing you would just complicate things.
Looking back, I should have said yes. I should have gone back with you and tried again. I was unsure of how I felt but being with you again, even for a while, made me feel loved. You saw me during my worst. Remember the wine night? I was wasted and you were there, helping me while I puked my guts out. You made me smile every time you send me a simple text. I guess I never really paid much attention to the little things you did, but I sure do miss them.
I haven’t heard from you in weeks. You just vanished after you recent beach trip. I know that you’e with someone now. 5 months right? Well, it sure is longer than ours.. Kudos to that.
And where does this take me? I don’t know. I guess I miss you and I regret walking out just like that. You were right, I was afraid to let go and just dive with you. I was aqfraid that if I lwt go, you will hurt me just like the others. I just didn’t want to go through shit again. I was selfish, insensitive and scared. I was scared to truly fall in love.
I know ours was never perfect. Yet somehow it taught me a lot of things. Its almost a year since we bid our goodbyes. You’re happy, I;m still alone. I guess you were right. That I would end up alone because I;m too scared to let go and just fall.
In between drunken nights and my crazy partying, I wished that I had someone to rather spend the night with. To get to the prince, you need to kiss a bunch of frogs. But what if you already had the right one in front of you and you were just scared to pucker up and kiss?
I miss you. I know that you’re happy with Mr. Perfect. Sorry I wasn;t the perfect one for you. But despite my imperfections, I knew for a fact that you loved me. I may have a different way of showing my affection, but I sure did love you.
I wish I could turn back time and have you back. I really do.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Thursday, May 12, 2011
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