Wrong

My life changed a lot during the last 2 quarters of 2010. After a big fall-out with a so-called 'family' and a couple of other issues, I decided that there is more to life than all the drama. So here I was, drinking my way to one session after another. Meeting new people, dancing, cozy coffee breaks and just about any activity under the sun, or moon and stars.

Then you came along. Suddenly my weekends seemed more interesting. I look forward to Fridays and Saturdays knowing that I'll be tipsy, or pissed drunk dancing the night away. That was the pattern of my college weekends, then took a hiatus when I started working, and now I'm back to my old ways. Old habits die hard eh?

Honestly, I'm kinda stumped about the whole idea of having a simple crush on you. I feel like it's wrong. Well, it's just a harmless crush right? But why do I keep on thinking about you?

A friend told me that I'm definitely falling. Crap. I can't. I shouldn't.

I know were the best of buds on weekends, sharing all-nighters and having the usual fastfood breakfasts. For some reason, I look forward to those quiet mornings with you. It's a nice escape from the noise the night before. My weekend is never complete without you in it.

I'm pretty sure you know how I feel. I just don't know if it's fine with you. Chill. That's what we want. We're alike when it comes to dating. Well, at least in that aspect. Rushing just complicates things and the pressure builds up. So not in our books.

In this season where everyone is in a festive mood, I can't help but think about the coming weeks. Endless parties, reunions and tons of drinking sessions. Yet after everything, I would go home to an empty house, all alone. Sucks to be me. Will I have my usual 'Have yourself a merry little Christmas' this year? i dunno.

But one thing's for sure. I like you. I really do. And if you'll read this, I don't care. I just don't have the guts to say it to your face. We're friends. I'd rather keep that than lose you.

As for now, I'll just enjoy every moment I have with you. That's the least I can do.

I'll see you soon.