My friends always say that I'm in the running for being an old maid or whatever you may call it. They say that I do not need anybody to survive unlike others who are in dire need to have a partner. Personally, I think so too. But sometimes, I think about the possibility of having somebody. It would be nice for a chance.
Through the years I never had a chance of landing a happy ending in my pursuit of finding the right one. Why is it so hard to find one person to love and who will love you back? Why do some people change partners as if they are changing clothes? Why do some people have the luck in the love department while others will have to settle for watching romantic flicks and imaging themselves in the shoes of the characters on screen?
A few days ago, I met an amazing person. I gathered all my strength to ask for his number, send a text and hope for the best. Somehow after a thousand texts in a 5-day period, we got to know each other. Shared a lot of insights and opened up. Honestly I was hesitant because he was younger and totally unsure of himself. Obviously I had to put up with all the immature remarks and confusing texts. One minute he says yes, then the next minute, he says no.
I am not used to these things. I never had a steady relationship and the last time I thought that I could fall in love again was three years ago. I thought I had a chance this time. I thought we had a chance together. Then, a few minutes ago, things turned sour. I guess I screwed up. I dunno. He is young, undecided and a total virgin (so he says) to these things. I on the other hand is wiser (i think), totally sure and definitely not a newbie.
He's more of a home buddy, has a few friends, doesn't drink and quite the shy and timid type. I'm the total opposite. I'm loud, carefree, a social butterfly who loves to down booze and have a good time with friends.
So how can two totally opposite individuals end up together?
Science says that opposite poles attract. How come it does not apply to us?
Are we just two lost souls looking for answers who happen to bump into each other but ended up drifting apart?
Will I ever get my happy ending?
Fairy tales end when they are not meant to happen.
I guess I'll have to lie and sleep for now and wait for Prince Charming to rescue me from my dreamless sleep.
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To you, I hope you figure out what you really want. Step out of your comfort zone. You'll never know what you want unless you've tried it. Sometimes you'll have to break all the rules just to be happy.
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