Of Heartaches and Default Boyfriends

I'm no stranger to being heartbroken. I've had my fair share of feeling totally down that I just wanna lock myself up but always end up going out. Believe me, love brings out the best and worst side of us. After a few months of dating, I finally called it quits. The reason? The ever popular divorce grounds of irreconcilable differences.

Then why do people decide to make it worth even if they are on the opposite ends of the spectrum. Black and white, hot and cold, sunny and gloomy. Opposites exist all around us. They say opposites attract especially when we are talking about magnets. Like poles repel, opposite poles attract. Simple old grade school science concepts. But do these things apply even when in relationships?

Honestly, I don't know. It may work, but it takes a lot of effort to make it happen. Magnets do not decide or think about themselves. People are different. They think, argue, compromise or agree. Complicated much? I totally agree.

How come people always take the big leap of being with someone? You may answer, LOVE. The big 4-letter word that destroyed kingdoms, killed millions and shattered the dreams of some. But you know what, I learned the hard way that sometimes, love is not just enough. It takes more than that to make a relationship work.

I never had anybody serious, until three months ago. Now, I'm back to being single.

Am I happy? Sort of.

Am I sad? Kinda.

The truth is, no matter how we try to mask how we truly feel inside, somehow it shows. If you feel like a rut, it'll surely show somehow in one way or another. I was never good with relationships. Friendship, yes but relationships, i dunno. Lovers may come and go but true friends will be here to stay.

After feeling all sulky and down, I had good friends to keep me company. One of them I consider to be my default boyfriend. Sounds crazy right? He fits the bill. It's like having a good friend plus a boyfriend you can drag around, minus the extras. No need to elaborate on the last one. Haha!

Ruggedly handsome guys have always been on the top of my list. Well, no wonder I chose default boyfriend because of that. Tall with the facial hair, he surely hit the qualifications. For now, I'll just settle being with him and my entourage of friends. That's the good thing of being friendly, you get to choose the particular group you wanna hang out with. The downside? If you're partner is some loner who keeps to himself? Well he would tend to hate some of your friends without just reason.

So what to do in the next days? I dunno. As usual, booze, movies, books and a whole lot of talk with some of the best friends anyone could ever have.

Here's to you Inad and Anzy. Thanks for putting up with my drama and insane thoughts.

Sarah's anytime soon?

Just text. ;-)