its been months since i last wrote something here. i didn't even remember my username. looking at the last one i posted, i realized that the ride has been really rough. all this time i thought that i'd easily get over heartbreaker. but i was wrong. for these past few days that we have been together, i thought about it and yes, the feeling is still there. i dont know why. i dont get it why i feel jealous everytime you talk to that other person, why you care for him so much. did i ever matter to you? hahay...just another pathetic line for me.
i keep on asking myself why i feel this. as valentines day draws near, i stop and think. yes, i am alone again this year. last year, i celebrated hearts day at Malate with some friends, this year i dunno. when somebody asks me the question " are you happy?" i always answer YES. but then i realize, am i really happy? happiness is of many forms. i sit and assess my so-called happy state. Yes, indeed i am happy because, i have my family and friends with me but there is a something inside of me that is missing.
maybe because i still love that person and that is the emptiness that i feel. everytime i see you i say "i've moved on.".everytime i see you i say " yah,we're just friends.". but everytime you look at me and smile, i end up saying "syet, ang hirap mg pretend.". sad but true...
LR
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