a guise of smile by kriska joaquin

Why do everything point to that direction, that path you refuse to take? There's a dim light that lies ahead but you are blinded. The shadows of the past are in stampede straight at you. At that moment, with the shortness of breath, you are reminded of the hurt you tried to forget. A picture, a name, a person can only reach you as far. But there are memories... a certain memory thats carved inside of you. And as much as it hurt then, when the carving was freshly grinding through, the wounds never really heal. Every recalling moment is just as harsh, opening the wound and stetching it farther, deeper.

This is why it is so hard to fall. Because once you fall, you expose yourself to all these unpleasant recoils of that thing called love. It is better to go on and enjoy the company of several than focus and fall for one. In that way you save yourself of all the trouble of getting hurt while having the utmost "fun". Who needs that connection with a single person when you can have a lot? And why bother going thru hell and high water just for that one you suspect to be the "one". Go, have fun and be in the company of many. It may seem meaningless, shallow connections but they are acts of self-preservation. In this way you truly protect that one connection that matter most, with yourself.

In this jungle, there's only one person that will get you through. Yep, you got that right, only you. Didn't you ever wonder why they call it a "fall"? Well because you never get out of it whole, unhurt or without a stupid bruise. Its really falling from where the freakin "high" is, only to find yourself back in the real world with a broken soul! So why entrust yourself to another? Why fall so deeply passionately in love when you know it will end soon? Why even bother to see beyond that lazy bum, or that philosophical womanizer with a hopeful eye?? Why be the eternal optimist when everyone's calling your romance a stupid lie? WHHHHYYYYYYY!!!!!!?

With a guise of smile, i reply: "Maybe you've never REALLY been in love so stop asking why"