time

it has been days since we last said anything to each other. all we had were glimpses but neither of us want to be the first one to talk. it sucks! believe me it does. i'm not used to this kind os set-up. every single day i feel that we're drifting farther away from each other that eventually we'll end up in opposite directions. nobody knows where and when but one thing is for sure.

i miss you.

i've endured months of loneliness when we parted ways. every day that passed by taught me to give it all up, to let it all go, to go on with my life without you in it. yes, that was what i wanted to to. my mind told me that i'm just wasting my emotions on the likes of you. that you are not worth it. my mind heeded me, but my heart kept on going, falling deeper and deeper each day.

after the incident last monday, i realized one thing. that my life would not be the same without you in it. but i have to do this. to stop all this pain inside. to finally forget you. both of you can have your peace. i won't bother you anymore. i wont waste my time trying to go after the two of you. it'a bout time that i first think of myself.

this is it.