Late Night Thoughts

I wanted to take a break from my usual blogs about work. Ever since I started working for Zara, I lost my pep life, some of my social life and my non-existent love life. Love life, rar. Well, I've always told people that I never had any serious relationship with anyone. I don't know why but I always end up falling for the wrong lot. Hmmm, maybe I'm not yet ready or I haven't met that somebody.

Every night before I sleep, I always think about the day. I try to remember every thing that I did, every conversation, every person, every text message. I don't really have my eyes on somebody right now. I'm just too busy to look for one. But deep inside, I want to be someone's somebody, not just somebody who is nobody's someone.

But why do I always long for you?

There are days when I forget you. I don't bother thinking about you. But when my phone beeps and I see your name appear on the screen, I get all excited and happy. Crazy me. I know that we're just friends. That's it. Nothing more.

When I'm with you, I just feel happy, merry and GAY. Haha! Seriously, I do. Even though we rarely see each other, we still find time to meet up. I miss the good old tambay days, the star gazing nights, the movie dates, dinners etc. Sounds romantic right? Not really.

I miss the way you make me smile with your crazy and funny stories. I miss touching your face and holding your hand. I simply miss you. Sometimes.

I was pissed when you told me you were not showing up. Really. I understand that you have other far more imporatnt things to attend to than me. Well, who am I anyway? I just some crazy friend who used to almost like you. I know you know that. Haha! We're so honest with each other that it's so easy to tell you anything. And I mean anything and everything.

I know you'll read this and I don't know how you'll react. We always patch things up, don't we? I know it's a shallow reason to get mad at you for not making it. Again, I'm not mad, just pissed. There's a difference.

You'll make it up to me, I know you would. We'll see each other soon. You know where to find me. If you show up, I know, all the people in the store will ask me again if we're hitched. Haha! How I wish. Joke. I always say yes anyway. Haha!

"Hun", I'll see you around.

Good night.